Two days ago I was hit right square in the feels.

I have been a Ryan Adams fan for so long. His music fills my nights, lulls me into a peaceful slumber. He has songs that make me dance, songs that make me hurt.

Songs that make me feel.

And two nights ago an article hit about his abusive behavior… About the potential breaking of many laws with a minor. Did he know she was? Who am I to say? I have lied about my age before and done much more than explicit messages. Do I believe the women? Absolutely.

Absolutely.

And that’s the worst part. Because I love his music.

I love his music.

I loved it even when his manic bipolar behavior was disturbing before.

And I love it still.

Ryan, wherever you are, I hope you get the help you need. I hope you find peace and love and light.

And I will still listen to your music. It will still bring me joy and inspiration.

May everyone heal from this. Find love. Find peace.

Please.

Blessed be.